mercredi 2 mai 2012

..so mad i had to write!!


i just listened to the most rediculous nonsense i've ever heard on my life..
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(and oh, i probably need to start writing when i'm feeling good too :S )
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i'm getting ready for exams, i just finished a few chapters and i wanted to get some rest before i attack the next chunk of material. it's late and everyone is asleep, so i turned to my loyal entertainer in times of need, youtube.
i was going through some channels i'm subscribed to, and i found a video where the girl was talking so enthusiastically about a book 'the headfountains' by a certain writer i never heard of, 'ayn... something'. being a bookwarm myself, i googled the book and youtubed the writer, looking for an interview with him/her (the name can't really tell, huh?).
and i found a few interviews. and i picked one that was titled 'the morality of altruism', thought, it'd be an intresting topic.
"altruism is evil"... she said it with a sneaky hateful look, eyes that are filled with a combination of doubt, unrest and.. well, evil! i picked another video of hers about morality, she was repeating the same words, with the same doubtful voice..
i felt something wasn't right.. altruism is evil? i did my search on wikipedia and found the she's an atheist. she used to be a jew, but then gave up on the idea of God and chose reason, as she said in another video of hers.
the show host asked her: "what is the purpose of life?" and she said "i guess your question is wrong, one should ask what's the purpose of MY life, what's the purpose of YOUR life, because asking a general question like this implies that there's an extraordinary being that controls life and that sets the goal of it, the goal we need to find and fulfill. and that's just not true."
i'm astonished. how can someone be so clever, so mindful to hit that point, but give it up and not accept that there IS a god? what is about the idea of God that makes it so "unreasonable" like she said? because she can't see it? well she can't see air as well. because it speaks to emotions and faith only? well if she had a look on the previous messengers' stories, she'd know that religion has catered the human mind since the very start, took it from complete ignorance and helped it develop by making it think, gently taking it from the ages of miracles like mose's trip through the sea and jesus's creation with no father, to the ages of logic and mind. and the mind was forced to start to function and think when our beloved messenger (pbuh) was sent, he had no super miracles, he had no jaw-dropping magic tricks, he had logic, strong arguments, an unshakable belief in his message that made people around him think about it. THINK. that's reason, right? and thinking is what made islam thrive later.
as i went through this woman's videos, (not all of them anyways, i was intrested in knowing the reasons behind her rejecting her religion, but there was so many nonsense i couldn't watch more than four) i was remembering  theverses from the quran where allah told muhammad (pbuh) that some people will forever remain ignorant despite the many signs in front of them. this meaning never hit me this hard. and this holy hadith where allah says that his mercy is coming down on his people while their ungratefulness and evil are going up to Him.. i sawit in those videos, a hateful ungratefulness. it just made me sad. but also made me thank god he made me able to differenciate between good and bad, and made me want to be a better person, to give and to volanteer, to be a display of altruism, so that the misguided ayn something and her likes don't rule the world with their wrong thoughts, and to balence whatever negative energy they're sending to the world.
love and giving is what this world needs, ayn not self worshipping and definitely not stopping the wonderful cercle of giving. what counts is how many lives you touch, not how many things you did to satisfy your own desires. and for some people, giving satifies a certain desire, fills a certain void in their deep... oh, sorry, i guess you have no idea what that means. anyway, try to look at this picture.. the world does need more giving cercles.. and by the way, do you know why poorer people are almost always the happiest? because they have so little they're not afraid to lose it, and that makes more more ready to give, them, who need to be given. they'd share a spoonful of rice, or a sip of milk. they're free, more free then the most of us. i think you need to spend a month or two with some somailan tribes, it'll be a soul cleansing exper.. oh, right.. you never believed in souls. i wonder if you do believe in afterlife now that you're 6 feet underground.